This is a question I continuously asked God for years. Even when He began to reveal what my purpose was, I still pushed further and further to find the exact details of what He was calling me to do. When I wasn’t living my purpose every waking moment, I grew weary. I became jealous of those doing what I thought I was supposed to do and my heart slowly hardened and became unrecognizable.
There is a misconception about “purpose” which I have touched on a little before. The biggest misconception is that if you aren’t actively doing something to further it each and every day that you are failing your purpose and failing as a Christian. This is a lie. Just because you can’t see your purpose unfolding in front of you does not mean that God is not actively working on you and pushing you closer to what He has asked of you.
I’ll be transparent with you all: It wasn’t until just a few weeks ago that I really realized what this blog was doing in me more than what it was doing for others. When I posted my bit on feminism, so many people I knew came up to me and told me how it had changed their perspective. My first thought was, “well I didn’t even realize people were actually reading this.” God immediately switched my thoughts to “God is using this to further my purpose.” Some goofy hobby that I began selfishly has turned as an act of worship to God each and every time I post.
This is what God wants you to understand: He moves even in the small things. You may be frustrated that you are still working at the job that was supposed to be temporary, or the house you were only supposed to live in for a couple years has begun to grow old with you, or what you feel God is asking you to do is just too far out of reach. May I remind you who created the very earth that you stand upon? There is no act too small that God can’t turn into praise.
This reminds me of the widow in Mark 12:
“41 Jesus sat down opposite the place where the offerings were put and watched the crowd putting their money into the temple treasury. Many rich people threw in large amounts. 42 But a poor widow came and put in two very small copper coins, worth only a few cents.
43 Calling his disciples to him, Jesus said, “Truly I tell you, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others. 44 They all gave out of their wealth; but she, out of her poverty, put in everything—all she had to live on.”
This woman gave the tiny bit she had to the Lord. All her money, her food for the week, the clothes on her back with holes in them; she gave it all up and put it in the Lord’s hands. This is how we should treat each and every day.
Give everything you have to the Lord. Each breath. Each moment. Put all of your stress, cares, and worries into His hands and He will provide the rest. Stop worrying about whether or not you are fulfilling your purpose and start worrying about whether or not you are investing in time with Him. God never changes. As surely as you put your faith and trust in Him, He will return it back one-hundred-fold.